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Date : Thursday, February 9, 2012
Time : 2:33 PM Title : Not my choice.  Sometimes, I just don't understand why. How I wish I could have ME time by the beach. If only I'm a person who dares to explore & just go wherever my feet brings me to. Am I making big fuss out of it? Or, is just something that I should close one eye. All these while, I got to sense that she really don't like me to be in school, to be studying, specifically. Since secondary school days. And, me being someone who loves to take up many commitments just contradicts her expectations. I really wonder why. Why am I restricted to so many things. And, of course, for things that are good for me, I'll just accept. But, for things that I know it'll benefit me but she don't see it that way, should I just keep quietly and let it us past just like that? This is exactly the reason why I become a person who do not stand up for myself even if I'm right because all I do for the past 20 years is to always give in. I have been at home, doing MP online, for like 3 days straight. I can really see the difference in her mood, as compared to me being in school and out till night, for just 1 day. I really wonder why. I don't want to do more sins. I don't want to lie again and again. Just that, when I tell her the truth, I'm always doubted, being thrown sarcasm at the end of the day & being scolded for no particular reason. I don't intend to lie, I just don't have a choice. At the end of the day, a lie makes things better, not the truth. How long will this continue? One day? When? I seriously wonder. Secret of the day: Smiles on my face are sometime just pretence. |
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Nurul Izzati Bte Masam Simply, Izza. 19 this year '11. 16 Dec, her day Temasek Polytechnic, HSS Diploma in Psychology Studies with Specialization in Early Childhood Teaching (PSYECT) `I may deny it. You may wonder. But, all my secrets of the day are always the truth. `To the world, they might just be some normal people. But, to these normal people, they are my world. .Facebook. Twitter: @izzy_ish My Life Saviours. Family. ♥ Friends. ♥ Colleagues. ♥ Music
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